Now that I have more time the here is the continuation of my updated on X and N. X can be very challenging a times because of the brain trauma. I believe his memmory has definitely been affected. He sometimes has moments where he goes off into a daze and can forget what he is doing. I know I tend to do that sometimes, but it's different, you can almost tell he has nothing going on up there for those brief moments. I at least keep moving, but have too many things going on up there that I can't see straight!

Speaking of seeing straight - we ordered glasses for both X and N today because we went to the doctor Healthworks recommended and they will not get their glasses for 2-4 months because they are on medicaid and we were told that the correctional facility makes these glasses. If that's the case I would think that there would be a plethera of glasses to be had. Unfortunately, the inmates must be too busy getting their degrees on tax payers dollars. Such is life! The glasses we bought for them should be done tomorrow by 1pm.

I haven't even touched on our caseworker for X and N. This was his first case - need I say more! Basically this guy is delusional and all he sees is rainbows and butterflies for these kids. When we first met B (X and N's case worker) he was showering the boys with toys and picking them up for thier parent visits and it was really hard because all we ever heard from the boys was when was B picking them up, because they equated B with fun, food and fellowship with thier birth parents. Needless to say that came to an abrupt hault after this guy's case load got full. Now we are the one's picking up the pieces as to why the kids don't see another person they got attached to. B is very slowly giving us more and more information regarding X's accident report.

On top of the accident and all of the traumas that come along with that, we found out that X and N have a blood disease. It is not contagious it is hereditary, but again this means lots more doctors appointments and specialists. We had blood work done and the kids have the symtoms of the disease which their father said they had, but we have to take them to a hemotologist to confirm the findings.

This blog is seeming to be a little muttled, but I'm just trying to write down as I remember things from the boys first couple of months with us.

We did meet X and N's birth parents in court 2 weeks ago and they seem pretty nice. They seemed like monster's on paper, but meeting them made them real and we really are cheering for these parents to get their acts together and hopefully get X and N back. We never thought we were intended for foster care, we just thought we would do foster/adoption, but I believe the Lord is tryint to make it clear to us that we can do foster care. We've yet to experience a child leaving, but I'm sure the Lord will give us the strength to endure!